service training 1

so i had my first visit to arts & scraps. i met up with peg shes the director. she took me on a tour we set up a project for me and i'll be working with a woman named debra. i was going to do my other service learning through them as well only it doesnt fit the need of the class so its a no go. i will email peg later. right now im resting my brain after dealing with apa nightmare- no- learning experience. ya ha- staring in the mirror of my fear facing the demons fighting the dragon and yes living the nightmare. and then i think, well i could waitress for ever and ever and ever. or say ya, i know - do it any way.  arts & scraps seems innocent enough. no one looks like a monster whose out to get me. except me. so i will take it all one slice at a time as some one very smart once told me. i will make my dad proud i will make leonard proud i will  make me proud. and even though shes dead i will make my mom proud. besides all this anxiety is doing wonders for my dream life which helps in my dr. karen class. ya i think arts and scraps will be a lot like a drawing class cause its some thing that makes me use my imagination way more. because i have this fear that i have no real imagination and all my paintings were luck. and when i was drawing every day my drawing improved dramatically. but i never really enjoyed it cause it wasnt as sculpty and pretty as paint.  right. or its because i am horribly lazy by nature and i must be forced to do whats best for me. no, maybe but certainly not always. arts &scraps is i believe healing for the kids and for their families and i think for me as well. ok at least a start any way.  ;  >